Mad Mad World vs. Sad Sad World

I have received some news about one of my friends yesterday from my wife. My friend was in her house as 2 burglars broke into in. The good thing (or lucky, if you believe in luck) about it is that the burglars did not notice that she was in the house at the time and fail to notice her since she hide herself.

Have you ever feel so relieve and so mad at the same time? I feel so relieved not only because the burglars fail to find her, let just say that a very beautiful young lady plus 2 burglars is not a scenario that you would even want to ponder upon. I feel so relieve for both her and her husband (which is my friend also). Even I know it is not something that getting mad can help, I feel so mad that they have the chance to almost hurt my friends. I know, it is kind of illogical, but I actually like the fact that I feel mad. I know that it is because I care about them (have not get in touch with them for about six months now), maybe I am not as heartless as I think I am.

You see the story is this; we used to go to the same church together. I know the husband ever since high school and I only know the wife for a few years. Around March of this year, they decided to “try” other churches and I haven’t talk to them ever since. I remembered I joked about “deleted them from my memory since I haven’t seen them for quite awhile” with some of our mutual friends. Now I miss them immensely.

I don’t think, however, missing them or not means anything in this world. We are ok friend I think, the husband and me, but I don’t think we will ever be better friend than that. The wife and me, because of social constrain reasons, shall always remain social friend. Hey, I just want to be respectful and polite, you know. They are what I call, the popular couple, everyone seems to like them and I really don’t thing they need a weirdo in their life. My wife will say I have no self-esteem, maybe I am, maybe I am.

Anyway, so I ask my wife if she has called them and talk to them, to make sure if they are ok. I am really surprised to hear her said that she hasn’t called them. Apparently it is because she gets the news from a second hand source and she don’t want them to think them everyone know about what happen and calling them may cause more harm than good that way.

I don’t know man; it is such a mess up world that we are living in if we cannot even call someone we care for such a confusing reason. It makes my head hurt, maybe I am too simple for this world, or maybe I am too stupid.

Be safe and live with no regret.

Chill