Beljacination Complex

I am going to make Nacho and BBQ wings with blue cheese dip tonight or tomorrow night, I am sooooo excited.

Speaking of cooking, ever since I watch Food Network (it is my default channel), I have developed some sort of mental disorder.

You see, nowadays, whenever I cook, there is this voice in my head that describes exactly what I am doing in a cooking kind of way. It is sort of like I am the host of some sort of cooking show telling the audience how to cook the meal. It is actually boat load of fun and weild as hell at the same time. I wonder if I go see a psychologist will they coin a clinical name after me, maybe the beljack syndrome, beljacook episode, or the beljacination complex . They probably just call it the Food Network syndrome, boring.

Let you know the result of my little cooking session next time.

Bits and Pieces

I have these friends that come over from Hong Kong to study some post-grad stuff. Some the first few weeks everything is fine as we help them settle down, look for a car and what not. But as soon as the school start, I seldom hear from them and their FB's status most of the time is like "I have five assignments due" or "pray for my presentation". First of all, let me say that I need move my lazy butt to call them or send them an email, so I probably don't have the right to judge. But (of course there is a but) I really feel like a bank machine you know. Whenever you need a prayer, you post your status and people will pray for you because they love you. Yeah, yeah, I know people must think that I am a jerk right now (before I fully explain) and they are probably right, but I am a jerk that they don't understand.

Someone suggested that I should learn violin instead of clarinet, maybe I should out some more thought on it. I always don't like wind instrument anyway (I like to talk, in case you don't know).

Suddenly lost all interest in anything, logging out.

Have a wonderful evening

One can never escape one's grave that dig by oneself

Recently I got a Clairnet and I have start playing around with it. The whole learning something about music thang has actually troubled me for quite sometime now.

As far as I know, I am never a music inclined person. Like most people, I listen to pop music when I turn teens. It always, however, is the lyrics that be able to affect me emotionally. I always dislike classical music (chinese or western) and I always fail music as a school subject. I still remembered that I fail my grade 3 0r 4 music exam because I cannot clap my hand to the given beats. And even to this day I cannot always sing from Do to Do (octave) perfectly.

However, these couple of years, learning music seems to be something that keep popping up in my mind, I wonder why.

1) First theory is that I have more exposure to music, so I come to appreciate music more, hence I want to learn more about it. But the problem is, if you don't care about something at 29, you probably are not gonna care about it at 30, you know what I mean?

2) Second theory is that learning new stuffs excite me (which is often true), and since music is one of the most unlearned aspect of my life (which I remember I declair a similiar statement about 10 years ago), it is only natural that I am attracted into learning something in the realm of music. Maybe, but if something is not exciting at 29, you know what I mean?

3) Third theory is that I am jealous about people that can do music (which is somewhat true) and finally I have enough, so I go out of my way to learn something about it. Possible, but same arguement apply that if I can swallow it for 10 years, why not 11?

4) Fourthly, I want to be cool too, you know, be a rock star, hahaha. Highly unlike and probably only when I am fantacizing.

5) Last but not least, I got myself I music lover as a wife......BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Once again, at the end, the "W" factor always show itself somewhere.

I am not saying it is bad, I am not saying anything, I just want to live and be able to sleep in a bed.

Good night to me *cross-finger*