In the sea of chaos that actually the quiet before the storm

As "the day" is getting closer and closer, there seems to be more and more things that I suddenly "need" to do.

I finally go and put the car seat in yesterday, guess now I am ready if "the day" suddenly become sooner. Unfortunately, I still haven't buy a bed yet, which if "the day" really become sooner, someone has to sleep on the floor. My guess is that I will be the one that gonna sleep on the floor, even it is totally not my fault that for our bed-less situation.

One thing that I really need to be thankful is all the gifts and hand-down form friends and families, it really save us a boat load of money. To bad no one can hand me down a bed, well, maybe I need more friends? (Not that I want a used bed anyways).

I still don't know what should I be expecting except no sleep. Don't get me wrong, I have read some books and talk to a lot of people already. Maybe I am not "not knowing what should I expect" as much as I am "not knowing if I have all the bases cover so that I won't be totally taken by surprise".

As much as life sucks, I am hoping that this will not be a suck-y experience. I understand that my negativity leak out in abundant but I am not sure this is a good time for it, maybe this is my biggest challenge yet. I, however, still not buying that it will be a life changing one yet.


Chill (while you can cause you ain't gonna be chilling for the rest of your life)

Nothing likes disappointment everyday

If you know me, I am not one of those people that go all kiss kiss hug hug and baby baby xxoo kind of guy. But I find myself sort of “naturally” raised to the demand as someone is getting more and more pregnant. I wonder if this is because I am a wonderful husband, providence or survival of the fittest if you get my drift.

Work is getting quite unbearable now, as I don’t think I can totally tune out the bitching and moaning from my co-worker and the king and his concubine is getting more and more annoying. But I never wonder why they are here though, small time operation hire small-timer, and vice versa. Guest I am a small-timer myself, lol.

Life is surely suck as nothing seems to be able to satisfy the want of men, oh well, as early as Grade 11 Economic class they teach you that the limited resource cannot satisfy the unlimited want of men. When you don’t have it, you want it. When you can have it, you wish that you can have it as soon as possible. When you finally get it, it is not as special as you think it is. All this crap from me looks for a new car, not bad eh. I only wish when I finally get it, I will not be disappointed. But I will not bet on it as the car that I like come with no colour that I want, hah fun instead.

Too tired this day as my BP go up and down by the royalties various funky and funny shit, only if I can laugh about it, haha.



Chill