NoDame regret.

I read a few blogs/forums that are talking about the TV series のだめカンタービレ today. Apparently, there are quite a few people regret the fact that they do not learn any musical instrument or do not continue to learn their instrument when they were young.

Do I few regret about not be able to pick up an instrument? I don’t know. I do have 3 chances in my life to pick up an instrument. The first time is when in grade 2 to grade 3, for some reason (too young to remember) I was learning melodica in school. I even went to perform the regional 1000 people concert (don’t remember the exact name) which more than a thousand kids attend and play at the same time, we are even on the prime time news, lol. Too bad that the next year I have to change school and that is the end of that. The new school has no such thing.

The second time is when I was around 10-11 years old. One of my friend (which also my family’s friend) is learning violin, and he asked me if I want to learn too. I said that I will go check it out and I think I have attended 1 lesson. For some reason, we never talk about it ever again and that is it.

The third time is when I was 12, my school provides all students with extra-curricular music lesson, which we can sign up for one instrument and get free classes. My friend and I both sign up for the flute, and we later find out that since there are only three people (I really want to know even to this day that who is the third moron) sign up for flute classes, there won’t be any flute class. And of course, the school did not follow up on us, did not bump us to other classes (maybe because it is too full), the school just ignore us and since we are, you know, busy in our study, did not find out (or remember) about it for a long, long time.

I don’t know, should I blame the twisted hand of fate? I don’t even know does it count as regret since I am not responsible for any (or most) of what happen. I am not sure if I want to anyways. Even since grade 3, I always fail (or almost) my music class, especially the part that they ask me to do beat by clapping my hands. There is nothing musical in my life, I listen to songs for their lyrics, classical music make me fall asleep and the modern one bore me to tears. I have absolute no idea why I feel……unsettle……after watching the show.

As to why I am learning to play guitar now? I have no idea, I just feel like I need to do it.

What a fool.

Going to practice my pinky finger again, darn that retard finger